You know that optimistic post last week? And the excitement about trying comics the week before?
Bleh! Crashed and burned.
Something has happened in my studio practise. Something I haven’t been able to talk about because I keep thinking ‘don’t be such a baby’. It’s been going on for months and months now. For more than a year.
I can’t paint.
This week I tried again. As before my efforts ended in disaster with me in terror, sure that finally it’s gone forever, this thing that has sustained me my whole life. Gone in waffley washes, in screeching colours that subside in mud and wander like zombies across my panel.
“Alright,” I say, “You can still draw. So draw. You can write…well, you can sorta write.”
And all the dominoes fall.
So last week ended on a way down note.
I don’t mean for this new week to follow its path. This morning I wrote my morning pages, I went for a walk and I hit reset. I will remember to breathe. I will go gently and be kind to myself. And I’ll do it all again tomorrow and the day after, and the one after that…
We often admonish each other to be kind to others. Life is hard. Remember to be kind to yourselves too.
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Excellent thoughts to try- be kind to yourself too